[ It's family, Raleigh says, and Mako comes to see the point of it despite herself. She closes her eyes and turns away from the bathroom, because she doesn't want to have this argument, and she doesn't want this baby. ]
[He just follows her because he does want to have this argument and he wants this baby. He's scared shitless but he's never been more sure of something.]
It will be. Mako-- why not? Tell me why you don't want this.
[ It's a compelling argument. After all, hadn't they figured their way out of a hell of trouble before? They're a team, and it's never changed. At least -- well.
Mako looks back at him, hesitant. ]
And if we don't? We don't get to undo it if that happens.
[Raleigh... doesn't have the answer for that. Doesn't have a way out if they fuck up. Doesn't have really a good reason for keeping the baby besides he just wants to. Doesn't really have a leg to stand on except he's trying anyway.]
[ Mako's temper is fraying, because he's stubborn and she's stubborn and she doesn't want to budge on this, not when it's her body and her choice. Other people would say that she was lucky to have a man who wouldn't mind being a daddy, but fuck other people. ]
I am dealing with it. It's just not in the way you want me to.
[ Mako's feeling a headache coming on. Family? That's new, that's... essentially what they are now, and she hates what it does to her. She hates that it makes her waver and terrifies her at the same time.
Family. ] It's easy for you to say, Raleigh. You're not the one carrying the baby.
[Raleigh doesn't say anything for a long minute, just looks away from her to stare at the floor. And stare and stare and stare at it because all he can think about is Yancy right now, and what he'd say and he's trying so hard not to let any hate for her creep inside his head and his heart but he thinks that might be a lost cause.]
[ And, Mako thinks, that this could be the end of them both because she fears she would come to hate him if she keeps it for his sake. With a baby, she would be limited by so much -- and Mako's always had a driven personality; could she put all of that on hold for her family?
[For the first time since he found out who she was an undercover Fed, Raleigh doesn't reach back for her. Actually edges away from her so she can't get a good grasp on him.]
[ And that one, singular gesture breaks her heart. He's recoiling from her and this is the first time in a long while he's ever done this -- no matter how they'd fought before, Raleigh would never edge away, would never shut her out like this. Not since he found out what she was.
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It's not. Not yet.
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It will be. Mako-- why not? Tell me why you don't want this.
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[ Raleigh is tenacious when he wants to be, she remembers, and it's frustrating. ]
We're only just getting a life going -- and we have to be responsible for another one?
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Yeah, I mean-- we can figure it out. It's us.
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Mako looks back at him, hesitant. ]
And if we don't? We don't get to undo it if that happens.
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We don't know if we don't try.
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It's not an art project we can just try out.
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It's not something you can sweep under the rug either.
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I am dealing with it. It's just not in the way you want me to.
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So my opinion doesn't matter, is what you're saying?
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I'm saying, Raleigh, that I don't want to have this baby. How can I make you understand this?
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Don't agree.
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Why?
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Because it's family, we're family now, whether you like it or not, have been for a while and I can't-- I just can't agree with getting rid of it.
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Family. ] It's easy for you to say, Raleigh. You're not the one carrying the baby.
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That doesn't mean that I won't be involved. We're in this together.
look, ma, no brackets!
omg my baby i'm so proud
Maybe I can't ever be okay with that.
;w; /crawls towards
She exhales, reaches for him. ]
Raleigh --
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I need some time alone.
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She pulls back, hurt but defensive. ]
...All right. I'll see you later.