I REALLY AM THOUGH

[She remembers it from catching it in his memories "I've already had someone in my head, Marshal", and she'd thought then - Raleigh expected his second co-pilot to go down the same road as the first. And yes, that would've explained his desperation to keep her alive and get her up safe, because the flickerings of other (more) complicated emotions couldn't be true.

She regrets saying it the moment he flinches with that exhale, and curls her fingers into his shirt, pressing her forehead to his collarbone. I'm sorry, I'm sorry I twisted that knife.]

At a risk. I almost lost y- you almost died.