[It was more of a joke than anything anyway, since even just the sight of her is melting away his agitation. Like she's literally a balm for his aching soul, that just being near her calms him down, centers him, makes him feel alive again and the corner of his mind that is fully on board with this, that wants her, desperately wants to know what it's like to Drift with her.
People are only supposed to have two halves to their souls. Raleigh lost his off the miracle mile of Anchorage five years ago and yet-- yet here's this girl, this woman, she's not a replacement for Yancy, she's something else entirely different. Another half he didn't think that he had until she showed it to him and even he knows that math doesn't add up.]
Dunno. [He knows that isn't (entirely) what she's here for. If she just wanted to fuck, she would've waited for him at the bar, or in that alleyway behind it. Raleigh's just as much at fault for their last encounter as she is, probably even more so. He wanted her, wanted to feel alive again for ten minutes and he wanted her to stop talking, so put them all together and that happened. But it's not just that, Mako doesn't look at him with stars in her eyes because he's a former pilot, or like he's a piece of meat.]
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People are only supposed to have two halves to their souls. Raleigh lost his off the miracle mile of Anchorage five years ago and yet-- yet here's this girl, this woman, she's not a replacement for Yancy, she's something else entirely different. Another half he didn't think that he had until she showed it to him and even he knows that math doesn't add up.]
Dunno. [He knows that isn't (entirely) what she's here for. If she just wanted to fuck, she would've waited for him at the bar, or in that alleyway behind it. Raleigh's just as much at fault for their last encounter as she is, probably even more so. He wanted her, wanted to feel alive again for ten minutes and he wanted her to stop talking, so put them all together and that happened. But it's not just that, Mako doesn't look at him with stars in her eyes because he's a former pilot, or like he's a piece of meat.]
I haven't had one before.