[Raleigh did what he was supposed to do, what he had to do to seal this alliance and make this an actual marriage. But he didn't enjoy it that much, not really at all, because in the end, she's not Mako and she doesn't know what he likes and it was just-- different. Not even trying to pretend it was Mako really worked for very long. Mako had been nervous and shy too their first time together and he gets that, but Mako also eased away from that, reached out for what she wanted and wasn't too shy to ask for it for very long and Naomi more or less deferred to him all night, because he's the king and that's-- not what he wants.
He wants to be challenged, he wants a partnership, he wants Mako, he wants Naomi to be pregnant from this one night purely because he doesn't care much about trying to make an heir with a woman he doesn't love or even desire. Then again, he and Mako have been lovers for years and there's been no child there, and there's really no way to know if that's him or her and maybe they will be looking to his sister's young son as his heir.
Raleigh leaves to go back to his room as soon as he can, because he needs to bathe and change and get ready for this day. Just because he's married, doesn't mean the entire kingdom has stopped. He isn't sure if he expects Mako to be there or not, until he walks in and is completely unsurprised to find her there, getting dressed for the day and it's stupid, silly but Raleigh feels a flash of guilt for coming in the way he is.
Coming back from another woman's bed, even if it's his wife's because Mako has his heart. He feels like he broke a promise to her somehow, like he's betrayed her. He wants to reach for her but feels too dirty to actually do it.]
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He wants to be challenged, he wants a partnership, he wants Mako, he wants Naomi to be pregnant from this one night purely because he doesn't care much about trying to make an heir with a woman he doesn't love or even desire. Then again, he and Mako have been lovers for years and there's been no child there, and there's really no way to know if that's him or her and maybe they will be looking to his sister's young son as his heir.
Raleigh leaves to go back to his room as soon as he can, because he needs to bathe and change and get ready for this day. Just because he's married, doesn't mean the entire kingdom has stopped. He isn't sure if he expects Mako to be there or not, until he walks in and is completely unsurprised to find her there, getting dressed for the day and it's stupid, silly but Raleigh feels a flash of guilt for coming in the way he is.
Coming back from another woman's bed, even if it's his wife's because Mako has his heart. He feels like he broke a promise to her somehow, like he's betrayed her. He wants to reach for her but feels too dirty to actually do it.]
Morning.