[ That's not subtle at all, Raleigh. At least, it's not, to her. She knows him so well that she knows what he's doing, and it hurts her to see him like this -- that even after all those months she still loves him too much.
He wears his emotions on his sleeve, and she remembers, so clearly, how it makes her want to protect him, to guard his heart with her own and look, look what they both did now. There's still so much to say, so much to work through, so many things to do to mend this, she knows rationally, and the thought of it makes her weary.
She's tired of being alone, she's tired of not having him right there with her, with the way he holds her, his nose buried in her hair, on sleepy mornings when she's tucked against him and she remembers what she's lost. Mako knows, too, how much it would mean for him to hold Eleanor, but she doesn't offer -- not yet, not now; and perhaps it's irrational, perhaps it's cruel, because if nothing else Eleanor deserves a complete, whole family.
She deserves her father. ]
...I'm glad I did, too. [ Quietly uttered, and she presses a kiss to her baby's head, reassuring herself of her little girl's presence, the weight in her arms. It makes her brave, makes her say: ] ...Maybe you'd like to come around and see her someday.
...i hate you so much right now. like so much.
He wears his emotions on his sleeve, and she remembers, so clearly, how it makes her want to protect him, to guard his heart with her own and look, look what they both did now. There's still so much to say, so much to work through, so many things to do to mend this, she knows rationally, and the thought of it makes her weary.
She's tired of being alone, she's tired of not having him right there with her, with the way he holds her, his nose buried in her hair, on sleepy mornings when she's tucked against him and she remembers what she's lost. Mako knows, too, how much it would mean for him to hold Eleanor, but she doesn't offer -- not yet, not now; and perhaps it's irrational, perhaps it's cruel, because if nothing else Eleanor deserves a complete, whole family.
She deserves her father. ]
...I'm glad I did, too. [ Quietly uttered, and she presses a kiss to her baby's head, reassuring herself of her little girl's presence, the weight in her arms. It makes her brave, makes her say: ] ...Maybe you'd like to come around and see her someday.